Mission: Baby Miller

I only wanted to give an update cause I know there are lots of ladies out there trying to decide on what fertility medication to take. I just want to say that Femara side effects, for me, are so much less painful and dramatic then the clomid. My hot flashes were a lot less mild, and no crazy mood swings or pelvic pain. Although, I am a little more bloated and gassy, but i'll take that over a moody hot flash any day!

So this month, we might have to throw out. I have a stupid stomach condition that is landing right in the middle of my fertile cycle. Its just too painful to even think about having sex with my stomach all jacked up right now. But I look forward to trying next month, now that I know what to expect from the Femara.

Just a picture of the aftermath of the ER. They couldn't get blood drawn for the longest time. I could feel the needle every single time moving around, chasing a vein. FINALLY, they brought in phlebotomist and she had to use a baby need to get into the tiny vein in my hand to draw blood. It was a complete nightmare. I really did cry almost the whole time. And I refused the IV. Now the next 90 days Im on drugs and a have a list full of food restrictions. This isn't the funnest time in my life right now, lets leave it at that.

Mission: Baby Miller

just a quick update. Went to the Dr's yesterday to confirm cysts, and thank god there were none. I was going to skip any treatment this month, but we had an ultrasound. The ultrasound showed that I had 12 eggs ready for the ovulation race and the dr said it would be a good month for treatment. So here we go! Month one of Femara, and hopefully we drop a couple eggs! Wish us luck, send baby vibes!

its weird that me and wes even talk baby names when we aren't even pregnant, but so far we have locked in Lucy if we ever have a girl, and possibly Collin or William if we ever have a boy. I didn't think I would be so territorial with a name in my life, and nothing has even happened yet haha.

Also, my boss's wife, who was carrying the triplets as a surrogate, had the three babies yesterday, 2 boys and a girl, all a minute apart and.they were all over 4 lbs! im so happy for them and the parents! I can't even imagine triplets, let alone carrying triplets for another couple. People are so amazing to me.

Mission: Baby Miller

Ugh, I wish this post had some better news, but it doesn't. People have been surprised I went back on facebook as well...if you read my post, I didn't say it would last forever :) I got back on to get back involved with the book club ( the awesomest book club ever)

After the 2nd month of the Clomid, it has been discovered that the mood swings are just too much to bear, and i thought the hormones have given me cysts on my ovaries. It sucks, I'm not going to lie. Its been hard for both Wes and I to go through the ups and downs of the medication.

We are opting to go another way as far as medication. I am going to try the Femara. it is also used as an infertility treatment, but with less side effects. If you google it, you will see its pretty common. The only down fall is that its really supposed to be used for breast cancer patients, and is black labeled for infertility treatments. I had to sign a huge waiver and consent form. Im sure the FDA is going to put a kabosh on it anytime now, so i picked up my prescription on it already. Im sure its not likely that the kabosh will happen within the next 30 days, but you never know!

I've also read up on some fertility supplements and have been drinking a ton of 'fertility' smoothies and adding this Maca Root powder and some Super Greens powder, and I've also been drinking tea, appropriately called "fertiliTea" haha. I will try anything!

Did your husbands or boyfriends participate in the March Madness mustache growing? Wes did, and he was so proud! I am convinced he looks like a creepo though...like, white van creepo!

I also did a few Throwback Instagramming and posted these in March..

 Yep that is me with braces...I look so young..I was only 24!!

 Okay, so you may have not known this about me, yes i wore glasses, and yes I was baptized, at age 11. I am pretty sure I am beyond calling a Jack Mormon. That is me with my merry misses and merry miss teacher ;)

This is my awesome Mom, rockin' her style at age 37! She is gorgeous, right?!

I've also thought about my dad quite a bit, I like this picture of him, cause at this moment in time, he was really happy..and his proudest of me, I think. Even though Mark is in this picture, I like it and I am happy to have it to see my Dad smiling. I miss him.

Wes and I have been to four Jazz games this year...we are so lucky to have a connection! They are so fun to go to, and I know it makes Wes happy!

To end this post...I had two very special set of friends move away from me that I am going to miss very much! One couple will be easier to visit, Justin and Cassie, cause they are just in St. George. Plus I will see them in May, twice! One for Cassie's baby shower that I am planning with Mary and Beckee, and the second time for Memorial Day weekend in Mesquite!

The second couple will be harder to visit, Heather and Tom moved all the way to Seattle. Me and Heather have been friends since St George. She was my first culinary buddy! Then when I moved to Lehi, she moved from Logan and we reconnected and just hung out and had such a blast together. We kept talking about plans to be pregnant together! it could still happen, but we will be miles and miles away. She has definitely seen me through all my ups and downs, especially in the early Wes days! if you know what im talking about, you know it was a rollercoaster! I love you Heather- I can't believe your not 15 minutes away anymore :(

Burp Cloths for Baby Johnson

Last week Miss Cassie J came over and I taught her the wonder of my awesome sewing machine, the machine in which I have used maybe 10 times since i've owned it for 7 years!

Although it was all straight lines, these burp cloths were so fun and adorable to make! we made them 12" x 18" ( give or take a few centimeters depending on my awesome cutting and lack of measuring skills)

 It didn't take her very long to get the hang of it

 I love the fabric she chose! so adorable!!! we did flannel as our absorbent side- there is a ton of pinterest ones out there that use fancy chenille, or towels...pfft- flannel works just fine!

 Cassie even did the 1/4" finishing edges, now they look professional!

 This is a great starter set of burp cloths! I can't wait to make some for my own babies one day.

Speaking of own babies..we were unsuccessful this month with our treatment. So, round two of Clomid. Cross your fingers,send us good baby vibes..whatever ya got! Read below this funny analogy from Wes. He is so funny..everything is related to sports in one way or another :) He is such a great supporter though, seriously. He see's how hard I struggle to get through the emotions of it all and manages to lift my spirits.